I am really feeling rather sorry for myself today...I think maybe all of this is finally hitting me, I seem to have been in crisis mode for so long after our diagnosis that I think this may be a delayed reaction.

Eli is doing so great in every way except for taking his meds. He has figured a way to make himself gag and then throw them up. So tomorrow at clinic I have to ask the question of how much do I need to worry when he does this? He did it both this morning and this evening and I found myself getting so angry at him, then feeling horrible. All he knows is it is yucky and he doesn't want to take them....And he has been such a trooper.

I just can't seem to get the "why me's" out of my head today. We have been laying really low this week with his counts being nonexistant on Tuesday. (His ANC was at 0 which means he has nothing at all to fight infection in his body) I think that coupled with our hospital stay earlier in the week has me a little low.

I do see all of the wonderful blessings we have been given in the past two months...it is amazing. Tomorrow we go back to the clinic to do bloodwork and see where we are. I got this idea from a friend of a friends website and really liked it, (and ya'll are always asking what you can pray for:) so here goes:

Prayer Requests:

The fever stays away
Eli's counts go up
Eli has easier time with meds
Thanks for Eli's appetite increase
Thanks for Eli's handling the Vincristine chemo so well
Pray that I can continue to find the blessings in all this and some peace.

Thanks!!