"Whoever said winning isn't everything never had a child with cancer." - Anonymous

Friday, December 28, 2007


I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas!!

Ours was great....way too many toys, and too much food!! We went to my mom and dad's on Christmas morning for brunch and then John's family came over for dinner. The boys got a playstation, so we really haven't seen much of them.

Unfortunately Christmas night found us in the ER. (Actually it was John and Eli) Eli had a fever of 101, which is the magic number for an evening of fun at MUSC. He was given and antibiotic and they came home at 6am or so. We went to the clinic on Wednesday morning for the onc to take a look and have labs done. Although Eli's ANC was around 300 on Tuesday night, they were 693 at the clinic on Wed morning. But that was good enough for us to go home again. Well, we thought we were in the clear when Eli hadn't run a fever since Thursday morning at around 3am, but tonight we are at 100.6 again. So we may be back downtown later.

We are hoping to go to Atlanta for the New Year to visit the Valdes family and the Hucks family, but who knows right now? We will have to wait until later to see if it is going to happen or not. The thing that stinks is because we thought it was a go, we mentioned it to the boys and they are WAY excited......uuuggghhhhh!!!! n That will teach me to keep my big mouth shut!!

WE will keep you posted....Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful that we had a wonderful Christmas and this fever didn't happen on Christmas Eve, that Eli was able to have a wonderful NORMAL Christmas Eve and morning!!

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Sorry I didn't update on Thursday. John took Eli to clinic and I took the boys roller skating (this time I did NOT put the skates on, although I really wanted to!!) Eli's counts are:

Hemoglobin 10.6 (a little low, but OK)
ANC 1586 This has come up...in time for Christmas
Platelets 54 (No wonder he has lots of bruises!)

The docs weren't really concerned about the platelets but at the same time Eli won't get any chemo until they come up. They said it was prob due to the steroids last week. I hate it when his platelets are low, I get so worried with him playing. So I will be a little bit of an overprotective mom this week. On the good note, it is nice not having to take so many meds every night!!

Eli's liver enzymes are still elevated, and we will continue to watch them...they are the result of the chemo he is being given daily, so I don't know really what we can do.....I guess that is where we trust the docs.

John and I decided that we haven't had enough excitement in our lives and we went and bought a new house!! It is right here on Daniel Island so nothing will really change other than we will have lots more room...the boys will each have thier own space and Eli even gets his own bathroom. (something I have been a little concerned aobut) We will close on Jan 14 and move in the following week. John and I are going to rent this home, not sell it, so we will be able to take our time to move.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and my boys are about to burst. John went to take Jacob and Sam to see a movie and Eli and I are hanging out. I really love this time of year.

We all got to attend church today as a family for the first time in a while. Eli was so excited to get to go!! He loves the children and the atmosphere. It is so fun to watch his expression when we are there. Because his counts are up I think we will all get to go tomorrow as well.

Please take a moment to pray for all of those who have lost a loved one this year. I cannot imagine the difficulty of the season when you are mourning. As I have said before, I have been exposed to the many, many children that are fighting for their lives with various cancers....how hard for a parent who has lost a child to suffer through Christmas without them. I know I will hug mine a little tighter this year!!!

I hope everyone has a great Christmas....

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for my "wonderful life"!!!!!

Thursday, December 13, 2007


Here is our family at the beach...we all went to take pics....what were we thinking? The funny thing is that Judi's family went too and took amazing pics....she has an 18 year old and a 13 year old...haha

Yesterday's clinic went well. Eli's counts are:

ANC 670
Hemoglobin 11.9
Platelets 168

Not bad, but could be better. We thought at first that we wouldn't be able to do the LP, but then realized the counts only have to be 750 to start maintentance, not continue it. So everything went on as planned. Eli had a "bronchial spasm" while he was sedated that the anesthesiologist wasn't too happy about, but everything worked out OK. We got to see Kinsey and Stacey Lewis...Kinsey was such a trooper. She was supposed to have an LP too, but her counts were too low.

The steroids started yesterday. I am glad we are getting them done before Christmas. Eli has been moody enough without them lately, and I think it is caused by the simple fact that he is a three year old boy. I have been putting off toilet training him but I think my time has run out and I need to get it started next week. The thought of having to take him to a public restrooms just gives me the willies, but we will have to manage through it.

Wanted to share this with you.....

JACOB'S PRAYER

As the balloons take to the sky
May we think of the children
Who are fighting the battles of their lives
Hoping for a cure
We hope with them
We send our blessings
And our prayers
To conquer the beast
May they win their battles
May their wishes be granted
May their dreams come true
And for their wishes
Their dreams
Their lives
We send this prayer

To the children
With their wishes granted
Their lives ahead of them
How wonderful it is
To have them on this earth today
We wish them luck
In their journeys ahead
May they be happy
Also pain and sorrow free
Let them have
Luck in their adventures
Let their families
Live on

For all the spirits
The beast has claimed
May they be in peace
For they have faced
The monster
Though not victorious
They put forth valiant efforts
May their families
Though they grieve
Know that their beloved
Are in a wonderful place
They are our heroes
They are our Angels
With this prayer
We send our love
May these Angels
Guide us to the cure

An amazing poem I got off of another blog site..it was a poem read at the funeral of Miles Levin, an amazing 18 year old that died recently of brain cancer after an incredible battle...balloons were released and this poem was read...really is beautiful.

Thanks for checking in. I hope everyone is enjoying this season. It really is magical with the kiddies....have fun!!

Maria

I am thankful for Eli and the smiles he gives me everyday.

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Today's visit to the clinic was uneventful. (I like those days) His labs were:

Platelets 232(Normal)
Hemoglobin 11.7 (Normal)
ANC 940 (Low but coming up a bit..)

I am pleased to see the ANC has come up some. The drs are wanting in between 1500 and 500, but I would like to see it on the higher side of that. Especially during cold and flu season!! He is still coughing, but Diane (the nurse practicioner) said his lungs sound great, so nothing to worry about there. He hasn't had any type of fever, so all is well.

Next week we go in on Wed for another LP with Methotrexate. We will do it again in January, then have another MRI to be sure nothing is going on. The dr wants to keep him on the anti seizure med indefinitely just as a precaution and I am fine with that. He feels that as long as Eli is getting the LP's it is a good thing to have.

WE are planning to go to Atlanta for New Years to visit friends. We haven't been on a trip all year and we think the boys will have a blast. John was thinking about going to the bowl game but I think it may be impossible to get tickets...if so, we will just have fun doing other things. Diane said she thought it was a great idea...

Jacob and Sam are doing great and driving me crazy, as usual. I sometimes wonder how they got so big, especially Jacob.

Things here are really starting to settle down and become "normal". It is a new normal for us, but one that we have really been waiting for.

Please pray for the Barber family as they deal with the loss of a dad and husband.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful that things are settling down for us as far as the chemo goes.....

Friday, November 30, 2007

Yesterday's labs:

Hemoglobin 11.2 (Still normal, yea we don't need blood!)
Platelets 244 (Still normal, yea we don't need platelets)
ANC 566 (This has finally dropped, we will be staying out of public places)

Eli's ANC finally dropped, but too much for me....there is never a happy place. Part of it may be due to the fact that he has a cough. He also had some fluid in one of his ears...all of this could be causing the low ANC. We will just wait and see. They were going to increase his chemo again this week if the counts were still high, but now that is on hold.

Scary thing at clinic this morning. Eli has had a slight cough for a while, the docs actually thought it might be allergies or caused by his screaming at night aggravating his throat because there was nothing else to it. This has been going on for about 3 weeks. Well, this morning while he was getting his IV pentamadine, Eli started coughing and couldn't seem to stop. He then acted like he was really sleepy..then kinda fell asleep. Diane (The NP) put the pulse-ox on his finger and only got a reading of 94. Eli always runs a 99-100. So she called the respiratory therapist to give him a treatment of albuterol. He came in and gave him the treatment, then Eli perked right up. Diane thinks he may have just had a bronchial spasm...no big deal. There was neve a time where things were "critical" or even near it, but it still has me reminded that this is never normal. Anything can happen at any time. So now Eli is on an antibiotic as well as breathing treatments. It hasn't happened since then...so OK. Got to run... Pam is here to watch Eli. Thanks for checking in.

Maria

Monday, November 19, 2007

We had a great weekend. The game was an exciting one, although a heartbreaker at the end. It was cold, but we came prepared and everything went OK. Sam even lasted until 12 midnight when we got back to the car (I was quite impressed here). Eli was great at my mom's...which I was concerned about. He took his medicine without incident and even slept in a big boy bed!!

NOW...since yesterday Eli has been quite a handful.. we know it is the steroids, but it is so hard. His sleep last night was fitful to say the least, and today has been about the same. The good thing is his last dose for this month is in the morning...yea!! A three year old on steroids is just not right!!

The Today Show is doing a thing on St. Jude's hospital today and I just happened to see it...I absolutely broke down sobbing. It just hits me sometimes that this is our world now. The little boy was talking about how he was almost done with treatment and showing the chemo room, etc. It was weird knowing exactly what he was talking about....and that made me wonder....how did we get here? Why are we in this world now? Why is it my son? What is going to happen? Then Eli looked at me and told me not to cry, which made me cry harder. I then composed myself and he and I went to the aquarium and had a great time. It is funny how it comes at the weird time...kinda like you are suprised you are living the life you are....

I will let everyone know how our clinic visit goes on Wednesday.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for my mom and dad and all the help they have given me over the past year!!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Todays labs were:

ANC 2220 (still higher than they want)
Platelets 253 (normal)
Hemoglobin 11.5 (normal0

The only thing a little concerning on the labs were that two of the liver indicators were high, this has never happened before. They aren't at critical levels or anything, but it is something we will have to watch. The methotrexate and 6-mp that he is on can cause liver damage, and we don't want that to happen. His bilirubin is still fine, as is the other indicator. So, as always, we will wait and see. I think I will press them more if the number is still elevated next week.

Eli got his Vincristine without any problems, it just took a while. HE was really bummed that he had to get his tubie today, no finger prick. All I could tell him to make him feel better was that he did NOT have to get the sleepy medicine. The thought still creeps into my mind how unfair it is that this is now our vernacular and that my baby has to endure so much. But as I have said again and again, we are blessed in so many ways I need to stop my griping.

We start the steroids tonight....for the next five days. It really didn't seem so bad last time, so hopefully we will have the same experience this time around. Please pray that we do. He has been doing so well.....

Thanks for checking in. I will try to check in again after the weekend. We go to clinic this week on Wednesday not Thursday due to Thanksgiving.

Maria

I am thankful for my family.

Monday, November 12, 2007

I was meaning to post on Thursday, but our appointment at the clinic was so painless and quick, I think I just wanted it to seem like a "normal" week!! Anyway, here are the labs from Thursday:

Hemoglobin 12.1 (Normal)
Platelets 293 (Normal)
ANC 2366 (Good)


The ANC is still higher that they want it to be, so we increased his 6-MP that he takes every night. They want the ANC to stay between 1500-500. So we will see what the increase takes us to over the next month or so.

WE go in this Thursday for Vincristine and then take his 5 day steroid pulse, but we have a month off on the LP. This is nice since he had to be sedated twice last month because of the MRI. The sedation isn't the big deal, it is that he cannot eat or drink.

The garage sale went really well. We raised $556 for Team in Training!! I was really glad....and my house seems less junky now which is always a bonus.

Eli continues to do so well!! His mood has been great and he seems to feel good. He has a cough that I am a little worried about, but I will have them check it out on Thursday when we see the doctor. Because he is doing so well we only have to see the doctor every two weeks, the other two we will just go in to have labs drawn....YEa!!

We are going to go the the Clemson game with the older boys this weekend and Eli will stay with my mom. It should be good. If Clemson beats BC we will go to the ACC Championship....a very big deal!!

Jacob's class is doing a fundraiser with SunTrust Bank. They are going to create artwork and sell it at an "Open House" at the bank one night in January. The class was "adopted" by SunTrust for the year.....the lady who is in charge of the class for SunTrust had a granddaughter (15mos) that lost her battle with Leukemia last year. Isn't it amazing that the CLASS decided to give the money to the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society before they even knew this?! I sure think so....

Hope everyone has a great week. I will post on Thursday when we come home from the clinic.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for everyone who helped and donated for the garage sale and all of the children that sold hot chocolate and muffins!!

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Here is an amazing analogy someone on my LLS Discussion board came up with to help people imagine what our "walk" with cancer is like. I wanted to share it with you:

Analogy


This journey is like a long cold winter evening with fresh snow on the ground. You and your family have to walk from your current home to a new one that you were told was constructed for you many miles away. Portions of the route you or other members of the family are familiar with, others portions, the family is not. The fresh blanket of snow covers the route so you are not completely comfortable with what you thought you knew at the beginning.

As the family begins the journey, the blasts of cold artic air forces everyone into buckling and zipping up, a numbing sensation begins as you attempt to adjust to the environment. The darkness of the night forces everyone to rely on other senses that they normally don't. We can't see very far so now we have to rely on hearing, touch, smell, and taste. We need to expose ears, hands, nose, and mouth, to the cold to help find the way. At the same time to much exposure could result in frostbite, gangrene, and eventually death. Not enough exposure and you will never reach the destination and eventually lead to exposure.

After the individuals in the family have adjusted to make this journey into a family endeavor great progress is made towards reaching the new house. At the same time complacency will lead to failure, a delicate balance of adjusting to each leg of the journey and the needs of the individuals without causing harm to the family takes on greater importance then you every imagined, problems with one member could easily have a domino effect.

As the journey progresses there will be times when whiteout conditions occur and the only option will be to make a snowcave and wait for the storm to pass. Other times the air will feel so crisp and clean that you just want to stop and go no further because you will try to convince yourself that this is good enough, no need to continue the journey someone will find us and give us a ride.

Knowing when to dig the snowcave or forcing ourselves to go on when we think we’ve traveled far enough is a delicate balance that needs to be assessed on a daily basis. There are no guarantees that the family will reach the house. Families that have traveled the route before illuminate a light at the end of the journey but you can not follow completely in their footsteps because the fresh snow has covered the tracks.

We are blessed that Eli has proven to be such an unexpected resilient navigator for our journey. Our immediate family is adjusting to this new life with only minor bumps in the road. Our extended family has provided the love and understanding that is needed now more then ever before, and finally for the doctors, patients, and other cancer families that are illuminating guidance beacons as we navigate through this 3 year extended winter night.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

Sunday, November 04, 2007




What an amazing weekend for the Crowleys!!!

Jacob got an award for making the "A" Honor Roll....we are so proud of him. He also got perfect attendance for the 9 weeks.

Halloween was a blast, as I said before. The picture of the boys pretty much says it all....do you think they have an attitude or what?!

Then today, we celebrated Eli's 3rd birthday....Amazing. It is so great to see how well he is doing now....I find myself just overjoyed. He had a pirate birthday and we ordered a cake from Julia Stoner of Cookie Obsession....she did a fantastic job and the cake not only looked incredible, but tasted great!!

The weather was 75 and sunny...again, beautiful. So the kids played outside and the grownups talked inside. It almost seemed as though God was looking down, smiling, and saying "Eli, you deserve it." I know things probably won't stay this good for the entire next 3 years....but it is weekends like this that you store for those times when you need them. Seeing Eli so healthy and happy....as you can tell, I am smiling as I write this and I can't stop!!

Hope everyone had a good weekend. Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for our amazing little boy and soooo thankful that we made it through this year and things are going so well.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Counts yesterday were:

Hemoglobin 10.4
Platelet 344
ANC 2290

So we are still in a good range. The MRI went off well yesterday morning. It was early (8:20) so that meant that we didn't have long to wait until we were able to eat...always a bonus. We should have the results later today. My nervousness about that has subsided quite a bit, it is definitely something that is completely out of my hands...so I will deal with it when it comes.

I am assuming that with Eli's counts being as high as they have been that we will increase his dosage of the chemo in the next few weeks. Hopefully that won't really bring him down. I am not sure if they do that in tiny incriments or take a huge step and then scale back if need be. Again, there is so much that the docs don't seem to know!!

Halloween was such a joy!! I will post a pic as soon as I download off of my camera. As my neighbor Catherine said, it was amazing to see Eli running around with everyone having such a great time. We went with all of the other kids, then we took the three small guys on a shorter route and then home. It was about perfect. I think the holidays are going to be a little more emotional for me this year....first I think about where we were this time last year (without knowing anything about ALL, cancer, or the like)...then I think about where we were in January...I am truly blessed!!!

Please pray for the family of Tia Newsome. Tia was the wife of a friend of John's from high school. She died yesterday of colon cancer and leaves behind three small boys..what a tough time for this family. May God please grant them the peace that we know only He can give....

Also pray for the family of my Godfather, Pablo. He died of an apparent heart attack this past week. My dad has gone to the DR for the funeral. It was very unexpected and I know the family is grieving.

Thanks for checking in. I will let you know about the MRI as soon as I know.

Maria

I am thankful that we were able to enjoy Halloween!!!!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Our counts today:

Hemoglobin 10.4 (Normal 11.0-15.0)
Platelets 337 (NOrmal 140-440)
ANC 4.890 (NOrmal 2.000-6.600) WOWWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!

With everything going so well (knock,knock) the dr said that we can come in for labs weekly, but maybe just do exams every other week. This is sweet because it means we literally will go in, get a finger poke, and then leave. They will call me with the results later in the day....then we can go to the aquarium if his counts are good!!

I was so proud of Eli this morning. He went with Ms. Bobby by himself and told me not to come...he got his finger poke without so much as a peep, then he went back to the playroom to play...what a big boy!!!

Everything continues to move along. Our MRI is on Wednesday morning. Bobby said she would be there early to access him. The nurse in MRI said she felt confident doing it, but I really only trust the clinic nurses and the nurses on 7B. Although they may be confident, that doesn't mean they are good at accessing the port of a 3-year-old while he screams to be "let go" (he hates to be held down). So that is a huge relief and an answer to a prayer.

Please pray for the family of Chase, a little boy that has been recently diagnosed with neuroblastoma. I know what a hard time it is at first....please let the Lord help them through.

It is yucky rainy here, but I actually enjoy those "down" days with the boys.

Thanks for checking in....

Maria

I am thankful that all of this seems to be getting easier (or am I just adjusting....or both) Anyway...I give thanks all the same!!!

Wednesday, October 24, 2007




I wanted to share a couple of pictures from the weekend. Aren't my boys adorable? Don't you love the hair with the costume?????

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Eli's Team has reached 50% of our goal of $7000!! I am so thrilled...thanks to everyone who has donated. If you haven't donated and you really want to....go to

www.active.com/donate/tntsc/elisteam

As I sit here this evening all I can really think about is how very fortunate we are. I know that sounds a little silly when you consider what we are going through with Eli, but unfortunately I am in this "cancer world" now and I see what is going on....a little boy in California whose Mom is doing amazing things without chemo with prayer and other things (the child had horrible complications due to the chemo)...a three year old in Texas who was diagnosed about the same time as Eli and is having bone issues already as a result of treatment (between the steroids and chemo some kids have thinning bones) His mom is really wrestling with what the future will hold in terms of complications due to the treatment....and finally, a little two year old girl in NC from South America who has relapsed a second and final time.....her mother is having the hardest of times....and these are just the ones that I know about. WE are soooo fortunate. I know that we WILL have more difficult times ahead with all of this, but hopefully I will be able to gain strenghth from the now.

Anyway, I didn't write all of this to bring you down...actually the opposite if you can believe that....take stock in what you have today....give your kids that extra hug even if you are in a hurry. Take time to read that story...AGAIN...children are such a gift from God to bring such Joy into our lives....take the time to take it from them.....

Sorry so sappy....John is out of town so I have lots of time to think at night!!LOL!!

Thursday is our clinic day...our weekend was great...weather is great here....

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for my kids...

Friday, October 19, 2007

Thank you God!!!!! WE ARE HOME...NO PROBLEMS!!!!

I cannot begin to say how relieved I am...Eli got his lumbar puncture with methotrexate yesterday around 11am, and has had no problems since. In fact, we were running up and down the halls this morning with me chasing him!! The nurses got a really big kick out of it, but I didn't (since I hadn't gotten dressed yet, and was in my pj bottoms and a tshirt haha)

Our MRI is on Halloween to be sure no more lesions have appeared or that the current ones have not changed...but based on this experience I have complete faith that all will be fine.

OH...labs were:

ANC 2800
Hemoglobin 10.7
Platelets 377

All really good numbers, although I have a feeling when we hit our 6week mark we will be increasing the dose of chemo. They want his ANC to be between 500-1500. Eli also got Vincristine yesterday and we started the dreaded 5 day pulse of steroids. But I have a huge smile on myself and my heart is content....

Thank you for all of your thoughts and prayers. As I have said, throughout this entire experience Eli and our entire family has been so lifted up by your prayers..it is amazing the strength that we get from that.....Thanks.

Thanks for checking in. Have a fantastic weekend!! (JOhn will be camping with the older boys this weekend)

Maria

I am sooooo thankful that the Eli handled the intrathecal methotrexate with no problems!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007


I realized that I haven't put a picture on here lately...I am going to take my camera to the hospital on Thursday and take some pics. I never really think about taking pictures there, but I am coming to realize that this is such a big part of our lives this year....no pictures of it would really not be realistic and I would love to show them to Eli when he is 25 and remind him of what we went through as a family.

Every now and then I have to stop what I am doing and really look at Eli...this kid is so amazing!!! He has such a wonderful spirit. I think about what he has gone through this year and it just brings me to my knees. Thank you God for allowing him to stay the same wonderful kid throughout all of this!!!

Please keep us in your prayers Thursday and Friday. As the time gets closer,I find myself really getting nervous. It was such an awful time for us in January...I really don't want to go back there. I keep reminding myself..."Be strong and courageous....." but sometimes it is better said than done.

I am going to my Bible Study tomorrow morning. This is something I have soooo missed this year, and Pam Hawver has been sitting with Eli now on Wednesday mornings so I can go. I really feel the support and strength when I am with these women, and it will certainly come in handy this week....

I will update on Friday when we get home.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for Eli and the wonderful love that he gives me.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Eli's counts yesterday:

WBC 6.750 (Normal 5.000-11.000) In the NORMAL RANGE
Hemoglobin 11.1 (Normal 11.0-15.0) NORMAL
Platelets 441 (Normal 140-440) NORMAL
ANC 4000 WOW!! It has NEVER been this high!!

So of course John says,"The ANC is too high, it means the meds aren't working"...which would be true if it were for a LONG period of time. And they won't let it stay this high long, they will increase the chemo. But I will take it for a week. I also need to ask about the cold. I know that infections bring the ANC down, so I don't understand how he can have such a high ANC with a cold. But again, I will take it!!

Our clinic visit was really good. We had to wait a while to see the doctor, but that was alright. Eli just got his finger poke...so he was really full of himself.

The weather here is absolutely beautiful....in the 70's and sunny. Lots of outside time for us. John is going to the nascar race tomorrow so the boys and I will go to Park DAy here on the island and have some fun.

Th big Methotrexate day is next Thursday. They will do his LP with the Methotrexate and then we will be admitted for observation overnight. Please pray for PEACE for me and for no seizures. The docs really seem to think that was a one time deal, but I am very worried. Eli will then have a follow up MRI on Oct 31 to see what his brain looks like.

Please pray for Zachary, a little boy with ALL who is having a hard time right now. His mom is dealing with him as well as a younger sister, Jaden while Dad is overseas with the military. Please ask God to cover them and protect him and give her some rest and peace.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for all of the wonderful friends and family that are walking the half marathon and helping me raise money for LLS!! Go ELISTEAM!!!

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Nothing much to report today, Thank You God!!

Eli is still doing so well, it is hard to believe he is sick sometimes. We went to the beach on Sunday (something Eli has wanted to do for months now) and everyone had a blast. Unfortunately, we forgot the camera.

My women's retreat went really well. It is nice to get to know folks who have already walked this long road. And no matter how bad you think your story is, there is always someone who has had it much harder. It really makes you count your blessings. The one thing that really struck me is how many of these kids are misdiagnosed. It is almost as though cancer is the last thing anyone expects, even the doctors.

We go back to the clinic on Thursday. Eli just has to have a finger poke....he is really excited about that!! I am hoping his counts haven't dropped too much, he has a little cold. I think both of us have enjoyed having a "normal" life and being able to get out more. Just in case I am taking him to the aquarium in the morning.....

Thanks for checking in...I will let you know how Thursday goes.

Maria

I am thankful that we live in such a beautiful city and area. It is so fun to go out walking and look at the marsh and the beach.....AHHHHHHH!

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Eli's counts today:

ANC 1568 (normal 2000-6600+)
Hemoglobin 10.1 (Normal 11-15)
Platelets 366 (Normal 140-440)

We have had such a good week it has felt as though we are on vacation!! Eli has been doing fine, and doing all two-year-old stuff. The older boys are playing soccer and football and having a good time.

Our clinic visit today was quick. We went in at 9 and were out by 11:30. It was good. He got the Pentamadine, the profilactic (sp?) antibiotic and bloodwork and that was it!! The doc said that we will give him the Methotrexate at the next LP and he will be admitted overnight (this was for John and my benefit...after the last siezure we didn't want to do that at home) then we will do another MRI a couple of weeks later and see what his nogin looks like....if all looks good, we will continue with the Methotrexate for the remainder af treatment.

I am going on a girls night with some other moms from Courageous Kidz (a cancer help group) this weekend on Sat night. I am looking forward to it...it is nice talking and getting to know other women that are going through this. It is at a beach house on IOP..I will let you know how it went.

Take a look at the Team In Training website....thanks to all of those that have donated money....as I have said, I feel we can make a difference by supporting the research to end these cancers!!

Please pray for the Nash family and the Ward family. Both lost thier little girls to cancer this weekend, I can only imagine the pain they are going through. Please pray that God give them some peace during this most difficult time.

Thanks for checking in....it is nice not to have much to post....have a great weekend.

Maria

I am thankful that we are into maintenance and doing well.

Friday, September 28, 2007

Eli is in the paper....here is the link...

http://www.thedanielislandnews.com/artman/publish/article_2628.php

Maria

Thursday, September 27, 2007




Nothing new today....we went to the aquarium and had a good time.

Beth Bush did an amazing job in the Daniel Island News with the article on Eli!!! Thank you Beth!! If you can, run and pick up a copy. I hope it helps people think about Childhood Cancer a little more, and maybe even get more people involved.

Here are some pics from the our hospital stay. My favorite is the one of the boys together....Eli has such a good time with his brothers, no matter where he is!!! I thought it would be appropriate to include a pic of Eli with one of his favorite nurses, Niki, who I have mentioned here before. The last is where Eli fell fast asleep one day while we were on a walk!!!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Eli's counts today were:

ANC 2047 (Yea, in the normal range for a while!!)
Hemoglobin 10.4
Platelets 447

The MRI went fine this morning. I went in early so the "experts" in the clinic could access his port before the MRI. Then we went down to have the scan done, came back upstairs to see the dr, and went home. Pretty uneventful day. The results from the MRI will probably be in tomorrow, but it really isn't something I am too worried about right now. The dr said we could discontinue 2 of Eli's meds, so that is a good thing.

I promised Eli we could go to the beach this weekend. He has been wanting to go, but I wanted to wait until those counts came up a bit. The dr said it would be fine. John is planning to watch the Clemson game on Sat afternoon, so maybe we can go after that. I really want to get out and do as much as we can. It has been so long since we got to enjoy the world.....

I went by 7B to pick up our phone charger that was left in the haste to leave the hospital, and I was talking to one of our favorite nurses. She said she has been doing this for a while and she can't remember it being so hard--with new diagnoses and kids not doing well during treatment. (There have been more than a few deaths this summer) Please pray for these nurses, and those that work in the clinic as well. As I have said before, these are the women that take care of these kids day in and day out. It is so hard for them, and as a parent I know there is no way I could not have made it without them being there for me and Eli. Please pray that God give them the strength that they need during this rough time and give them the vision to see the difference that they are making in people's lives every day.

I think we will go to the aquarium tomorrow. Since we got our clinic visit out of the way we are home free until Thursday of next week...

Thanks for checking in...

Maria

I am thankful for all oncology nurses everywhere and the wonderful job that they do.

Monday, September 24, 2007

The weekend went pretty well...our marathon Saturday was long. John ended up going to all of the games, and I went home with Eli. The steroids he is on are definitely effecting his mood. I was hoping that they wouldn't effect him until day 4 or 5, but he has been really clingy since day 2. But today is the last day of steroids for this month...yea!! Now we just have to get used to how these moods and stuff go on a month-in, month-out basis.

We will go into the hospital on Wednesday for another MRI. They will take a look at the brain lesions and see if there has been any change. This will also be our baseline as we try the Intrathecal Methotrexate at his next Lumbar Puncture next month. As I have said before, this is a really good drug and we haven't given it to him in the spine(we have substituted another drug) since he seized on Jan 13...so we will try it again now that he isn't on such a tough chemo regimen and see what happens.

John and I have been married 13 years today...WOW. He got his mom to come watch the boys tonight and we went out to Sienna for a nice dinner...YUM.

Thanks for checking in. I will let you know how the MRI goes.

Maria

I am thankful for my husband and my marriage. I don't know how someone would go through this without a supportive and wonderful partner...

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Today Eli's counts were:

Hemoglobin 10.4
Platelets 556
ANC 1276 (Yea, thanks for all of the prayers!!)


We are OFFICIALLY in Long Term Maintenance!! Eli was able to get his LP today and get things started with the chemo. It was a really short clinic visit, we were our of there by 12noon...Again, we are on like 10 different meds a day, but at least it is all at home.

The Daniel Island News is going to write a story about Childhood Cancer Awareness Month....Beth Bush came to the clinic and visited with us for a while. I think it is great that they are willing to help make more people aware that we really need to find a cure!!! I will put the link up when the article comes out.

Jacob and Sam both had football games today. It was really nice to be able to take Eli and chase him around like a "normal" two year old. He still has lots of energy and is handling everything so well. It is amazing watching them play football...when did they get so big?

A young girl, Rachel, is in the hospital finishing her last treatment. Way to go!! Please pray for the parents of another little one, Morgan, who is not doing well. I know I have said it before, but it is so HARD to be in this world where I see so many little ones suffering....

Thanks for checking in.

Maria
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Give so we can find a cure!!


I am thankful that today went so smoothly. Although we have been through so many before, it is still great when these "procedures" go well.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007




Here is a pic of Eli and I at church on Sunday.....Thanks Robin!!

Jennifer and I walked the bridge (or half of it) yesterday....I now know just how much I need to walk before Feb!!!!

I will catch everyone up tomorrow.

Maria

Monday, September 17, 2007

The rollercoaster continues!! Sigh!!

Eli's counts today were:

Hemoglobin 10.2
Platelets 486
ANC 450 (No..that is not a typo. And yes, we did make them check it twice)

SOOOO, after being NPO (nothing to eat or drink at all) since midnight last night, we were finally given the ok to eat at about noon...with no procedure. The guidelines of the study that were are on are very specific that he MUST be at an ANC of 750 or greater to start a new round of chemo. So we will go back on Thursday and see where we go from here. As one of the nurses said, Eli never does it the easy way...

I am very relieved that we did the BMA last week to rule out relapse, I think I would be really scared right now otherwise. He may be brewing some little infection or it may just be recovering from the past 8 months. But I did talk to the doc about taking Eli off of some meds (his anti seizure, and the anti fungal) So we won't have to take quite so many in the next month or so.

Our nurse practicioner lost her husband last month very unexpectedly and I was asking her how she was. She told me it was day to day, but she really doesn't know where she would be without her church family. I told her I had wondered the same thing, how does someone go through something like that without that support and those prayers? I told her that it was my church family that helped me get back to standing after we were diagnosed, and I cannot imagine it without them even now. Now why can't people see that stuff when they see Christians instead of all of the negative bullsh-t? Just a thought....

Thanks for checking in....please pray for us as we go back to Clinic on Thursday for a repeat of today,..,...

Maria

I am thankful for my friend Annnie, who is coming from Denver in Feb to walk in the half marathon with us. It is amazing how true friendship overcomes miles in a way nothing else can.....thanks for being there for me....

Sunday, September 16, 2007

For the first time since New Year's Day....The ENTIRE Crowley Family was at church TOGETHER!!!!!

What a momentous occasion. Eli really enjoyed himself, dancing in the aisles no less. John was an usher, so we didn't get to sit together....but we were all there!!!

The week has been fine. Eli and I went into the clinic on Friday morning just to check his counts for the weekend. This is not something I like to do (I don't like to be there any more than we have to.) but after the roller coaster that was the past few weeks, I was really wanting to know the numbers to plan the weekend. I took Eli to the aquarium first so he didn't mind going...especially when I told him it was just a finger poke. My little guy has gotten so "old" so fast. When I tell Jacob he is getting a poke he RUNS the other way.

Eli's ANC was 1497
Platelets were 427
Hempglobin 9.8

Our clinic day is tomorrow. Eli will get a LP (Lumbar Puncture) with chemo, IV of Vincristine chemo and start on a five day pulse of steroids. Please pray that Eli continues to do well with the chemo.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for getting to to to church as a family. Eli misses his church family, you could see the joy in his face as he played!!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

I am so glad to say that I have NO idea what Eli's counts are today.

We had a lazy day once the older boys went to school. I think we were both just enjoying being home. We went out for a little bit, and I told him that we have to start walking or bike riding in the mornings tomorrow...I have a half marathon to complete in Feb!!!

John is out of town. I think it really bummed him out to leave as soon as we get home, but he will be back tomorrow. He is taking Jacob and Sam to Clemson this weekend for the Furman game. An old friend of mine, Darrell, was really great and let us have his tickets. That should be great for all of them. Hopefully we will all be able to go to a game later in the year. I was thinking maybe Homecoming, but we will see how the counts go from here on.

Going through the boys bookbags I realized how removed I have been since they began school. I really had no idea what was going on. Between my mom and John things are fine, but as a mom I like to have my finger on the button...

Please continue to pray for my brother in law, Paul. It looks as though he has a twisted intestine and he may have to have surgery if it doesn't resolve itself by tomorrow.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for the beautiful weather we have had. I am actually getting to go out in it!! Although it has been warm, it has been great just the same.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

WE ARE HOME!!!!!

Eli's counts today were:

ANC 411 (WOW...up from 173 yesterday)
Platelets 186 (Normal)
Hemoglobin 9.8

Today was a great day, although very tiring. Eli had his CT scan this morning to look at his intestines and everything looked good. He is still having some issues when pooping, but all of us want to get him home to see how it goes. With a guy this age you don't know how much of it is in his mind because it was hurting him so much before. I am hoping once he is in "his environment" he won't concentrate on it so much and it may not seem so bad. It was like Christmas at our house when the boys came home from school and Eli was here. Amazing how 3 weeks in the hospital can make you really realize how great it is to have everyone together.

My grandmother's memorial was really nice. My two uncles were there, and so were lots of friends from way back.....It was nice to remember her. My mom and dad will be going to Charlotte for the burial, I will be staying here. As John told you, I feel it was a "God Thing" on Sunday. Neither my sister nor myself had been to see her in a long time, and we both felt compelled to go see her on Sunday when
Dad called and said she wasn't doing well. We were both there when she passed and I do believe that she knew we were there with her...it was peaceful, and it gave me peace.

We will start Long Term Maintenance on Monday morning. We start with an LP (Lumbar Puncture) and we aren't sure if the doc is going to want to go with the Methotrexate or not. ( this is the one that we think gave him the seizure) So we will wait and see. But the chemo from now on should not be nearly as difficult for him...we should be able to get back to "normal" by the end of the year. It will be nice to be able to do more as a family....I am really looking forward to having us all at church worshipping together!!!

Please pray for my sister, Judi, and her family. Her husband Paul is in the hospital (had to go in this morning at 3am) with a bowel obstruction. He is in some pain, and they may have to operate.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful that we are home and together as a family!!!!

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Today's counts were ANC 163, hemoglobin 10.7, and platelets 109.

We are glad to repot that Eli's ANC has improved but we need to see it improve a few days in row to know he it is really headed in the right direction. On another more sad front Maria's grandmother passed away today. She was 92 years old and live an incredible full life which we celebrate today. She was a blessing to all us (even though she has been sick for a while and we really have not spent as much time with her as we wish we could have). While when this happens it is always tough, one of the blessings is that Maria and her sister were able to be there with her in the end. Please pass along your prayers for Maria's dad and his brothers during this time.

Thanks for checking in.

John on behalf on Maria

We are thankful Eli's improvement, a long life well lived, and for so many thoughtful and caring friends (and on a much less important note -- Go Tigers!! 2-0).

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Back in the basement.....I cannot tell you how frustrated we are.

ANC 0
Hemoglobin 7.4 (He is getting some blood today)
Platelets 73

Don't really have much to say....John spoke to the dr and they are going to do a CT to rule out an abscess in his intestines and also do some type of test for a viral something.....but not until Monday. If both of these come back negative, we are waiting for the virus to "die".

Please pray for my family. We have tried to stay strong through this, but it is running thin for both us and the boys (not to mention Eli.)

Thanks for checking in.

maria

Friday, September 07, 2007

Well, yesterdays ANC was ZERO again.....grrrr! But today was:

ANC 30
Hemoglobin 8.7 (This came up from 7.7 yesterday without getting blood)
Platelets 54 (This came up from 43 yesterday)

Hopefully we are finally recovering, although we would like to see the ANC higher. The pooping continues to be an issue and there is nothing we can do about it until his counts are at least 1000 or so. They finally opened the atrium this afternoon.....Hallelujiah!!!! His spirits are OK, but this evening he begged John and I to let Sam stay with him. He misses them soo much. I try to go by during the weekends, but it is nearly impossible to do it during the week and have the boys in bed at a decent time.

The flow test came back negative for relapse.....that is the "final word"...Praise God!!!

There is a video on you tube that I would like everyone to see.....

http://youtube.com/watch?v=AGS4yE5v9rM

It is hard, especially for me (I cried through it) but very, very powerful and unfortunately, true.

September is Pediatric Cancer Awareness Month...I bet most of you didn't know that. So I have to ask WHY? Here are some of the facts:

* September is pediatric cancer awareness month, which nationally goes largely unrecognized;

* Childhood cancer remains the leading cause of death for children under the age of nineteen;

* Each year, more than 12,000 cases of cancer are diagnosed in children;

* In the u.s. alone, almost 3000 children die from cancer each year, more of them die from cancer than from all other childhood diseases COMBINED;

* The incidence of childhood cancer has increased every year for the last 25 years;

* In the past 20 years, only one new cancer drug has been approved for pediatric use;

* Only 3% of the budget from the national cancer institute goes towards pediatric cancer research!!!!

* The government recently cut the budget for childhood cancer research;

* Currently there are between 30 - 40, 000 children being treated for cancer in the u.s.;

* As a nation, we spend $14 BILLION per year on the space program, $9.7 BILLION PER MONTH on to support military operations in Iraq and Afghanistan (not including the request by the currrent administration for $100 billion in "emergency" war money), but ONLY $35 MILLION on childhood cancer research per year;

* The national cancer institute's federal budget for 2003 was $4.6 BILLION. of that, breast cancer received 12%, prostate cancer received 7%, and all 12 major groups of pediatric cancers combined received less than 3%;

* Approximately 20% of adults with cancer show evidence of spread, yet almost 80% of children show that the cancer has spread at diagnosis;

* The for prevalent form of childhood cancer is leukemia, a cancer of the blood;
the second most prevalent form is brain cancer;

* Twenty-five years ago, diagnosis of leukemia was a virtual death sentence-- TODAY, CHILDREN WITH LEUKEMIA HAVE A SURVIVAL RATE OF OVER 75%-- THANKS TO RESEARCH;

* The outcome of other pediatric cancers, such as metastatic rhabdomysosarcoma, HAS NOT IMPROVED IN 30 YEARS

what do you think about them apples???

Here's some more food for thought:
"Cure rates are steadily improving, but treatments are painfully long (up to 3+ years). Families are thrown into chaos, children are challenged by long term side effects and despite medical advances, some will die."

And here's something taken from curesearch.org:
"New shoes, backpacks, sharpened pencils, glue sticks and the butterflies of waling into a classroom on that first day- the start of a new school year each september reminds us of children. Yet, this new beginning also reminds us that some children are not so lucky.
On the first day of school- and every other day this year- 47 children will be diagnosed with cancer. That's two entire classrooms of children each and every school day. For the 12,500 children diagnosed with cancer this year, this special day magnifies the reality that they may look different, they may be in the hospital, and they may miss the joy of this and other milestones.


RESEARCH IS THE KEY TO CURE

Childhood cancer remains the #1 cause of death due to disease in children. While we celebrate all the survivors, we also take time to remember children who were diagnosed before a cure was possible for those children that contributed to the knowledge we have today, who have brought us closer to a cure.

For all the families who have been touched by childhood cancer, and for all those who will be during this school year, 47 children every school day- WE MUST CONQUER CHILDHOOD CANCER.
Imagine the difference it would make if every parent of every child starting school in september donated one dollar for each of the 47 children who will be diagnosed on that first day of school**I copied this info from another cancer kid's mom....thanks Maggie!!
Why is it that breast cancer, colon cancer, and others get so much attention yet the cancer that strikes those that cannot speak for themselves goes largely unnoticed unless you are personally touched by it?

How many of you have ever even seen a pediatric cancer awareness ribbon ( I can't find one..), and how many of you have something with a pink ribbon?

I am not saying that these other forms of cancer don't deserve a cure just as much, I am just saying that it makes me Mad when the hospital where we have been for the past two weeks has nothing at all posted about Pediatric Cancer Awareness, yet there are already bulletins (3 of them) for the Komen Race for the Cure in October. And this is in the children's hospital.

Again, when this horrible beast touches your life you ask, Why? But then it's Why aren't there more people outraged by this?!

Anyway, that is me on the soapbox. I will step down now.

Thanks for checking in. I am home this weekend taking the boys to sports while John spends some time with Eli. Prayers: for counts..... pray for a baby, Braylin, who is having a bone marrow transplant. His family is from Greenville and his mom is quite scared. Another boy, Justin, is in the hospital with an unexplained fever.

Maria

I am thankful for my Mother. She has been taking care of Jacob and Sam everyday and literally keeping my home functioning. I don't know where we would be without her.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Todays counts:

ANC 60
Platelets 45
Hemoglobin 8

Eli's ANC is coming up soooo slowly!! The doctors were concerned about it and so Eli got a bone marrow aspirate today to rule out relapse. Needless to say, I did not get a whole lot of sleep last night and I am a bit tired today. So they didn't take my poor baby until after 12 noon.....I was fit to be tied!!! He couldn't eat or drink the entire time....the problem is that that is all we can do here.....ANYWAY....the test came out OK so far. The dr looked under the microscope and said that everything looked fine, but we will get the "official" results tomorrow.

If there is no relapse we are looking at some type of infection....so we will wait.

The boys started all of thier sports on Tuesday and my mom was such a sport (no pun intended) about getting them ready for everything. I really don't know what I would do without her.

I am on the computer at the nurses station, so I need to make it quick. Thanks for all of your prayers and thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful that Eli has not relapsed and we can continue our treatment.

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Today's counts:

ANC 30 (At least we are going in the right direction)
Platelets 120 Boy, that bag yesterday did the trick!!
Hemoglobin 8.7

Eli was in a really good mood today. The boys and I went by after church to visit and he was all happy. He had told the nurses all morning that I was bringing him a cheeseburger with cheese and ketsup, so of course I had to get it for him. He is also eating rice like crazy. Thank goodness for those microwave in the bag rices....they are a real help. He cannot eat any leftover foods right now, so that makes it easy for us to make it fresh each time.

John tried to renegotiate with the dr but she really held her ground at 200 ANC to go home. (This made him mad and he has decided that he doesn't like her!!) The five of us went outside and threw the frisbees that we got at church. It was fun, and Eli especially seemed to enjoy it. It wasn't hot at all today because it has been raining here for a couple of days. But it was good to get out with all of us together.

Church was really nice. I never realize how much I miss it until I am there. I was thinking as I looked around that my entire family has not been together at church since New Year's Day....wow. Just something else to look forward to in 2008 or so....once we get Eli straight on all of this maintenance stuff and see where his counts end up. I think he probably misses all of the socializing with church as well. He got a great book bag at the hospital last week and he keeps talking about "going back to school"...

My funny story of the day...

So the other day I let Eli play with a brown magic marker. He got it all over himself, but it was the washable kind so I wasn't worried about it.....John calls from the hospital and tells me that he had quite a scare, but everything was OK. He says that he was putting Eli's shoes on to go into the atrium and play and he noticed that Eli's toes were black!!!! Well, of course he starts FREAKING out wondering what kind of infection are we dealing with now, how is he going to call me and tell me, etc....then he carries Eli closer to the light and takes a closer look....it looks a little bit brown, not so black. So then he wets his finger and rubs it over the toe, and lo and behold, the brown comes off!!!! So then he called me and I told him about the marker...ooops. I guess we need better communication....ha..ha

Please pray that Eli's infection takes care of itself and his counts continue to rise....also pray for Malaysia's family, as she passed away last night.

Thanks for checkin in.

Maria

I am thankful for our church family. It is amazing being part of a group that truly feels like an extension of my own family. Thanks for listening and being there!!!!

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Todays counts are:

ANC 20
Platelets 9 (He got a bag this afternoon)
Hemoglobin 9.0

The counts are still really low. The dr came by and told John that thier theory right now is that Eli must have an infection in his bottom. Unfortunately, that is a guess and we cannot "go in" to see if it is true because he is so neutropenic. (Can you say catch 22?) But the infection is causing his counts to stay at rock bottom....the good news is that Eli has not been running a fever for about a week, so it must not be that bad of an infection. So we will wait it out. He will continue getting the IV antibiotics and we will see. Unfortunately, she also made it sound as if we weren't going anywhere for a while. Great.

The boys and I went to see Underdog this afternoon then we went to the hospital for a couple of hours to visit with Eli. He is really so much more himself when his brothers are around. It is fun to see him play and smile more. I think when it is just John or I he gets a little depressed at times.

Tomorrow I plan to go to church with the boys. I haven't been in what seems like forever, and I really need it....

Thank you to Jean Lassiter and Maggie Compton for giving money for my walk!!!

Thanks for checking in.

Maria
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I am thankful for my wonderful husband, John. I realize how lucky I am to have such a strong marriage as we go through this....

Friday, August 31, 2007

STILL in the hospital, sigh. Eli's counts today were:

ANC 10
Platelets 17
Hemoglobin 9.2

These numbers are way, way low....however, they have held steady for the past couple of days. (The ANC has nowhere to go but up.) Eli's pain is almost all gone except for when he poops. As it goes with Eli, the doctors are stumped and really have no idea why this is. We have had an x-ray, ultrasound, and cultures of his stool. All with no answers. But we do know what it is NOT, so that is some reassurance.

Eli is basically just really bored.....and I really don't blame him because I am too. John is there now for the weekend. I told our dr that we were going to have to "renegotiate" this 200 ANC number if his numbers aren't up by next week. They are closing the playroom on Tues, Wed, and Thurs of next week and I am NOT spending week #3 in the hospital without the playroom. I will bust him out of there in the dark of night if I have too....

It has really been impressed on me, though, how blessed and fortunate we are. There is a beautiful little girl, Malaysia, that is two doors down from us at the hospital. Her grandmother and I spoke the last time we were in about our kids and how tough they were. She told me they had been there for 9 months earlier ( and I fussed about 6 weeks) and Malaysia had relapsed. Well this week all of their family and friends were coming by because Malaysia is dying. And here I would walk by the room with Eli in my arms smiling or talking to me....wow. I couldn't sleep last night thinking about it....and trying to figure out why God has opened my eyes to all of this.....there has to be a reason somewhere. I never realized how much I put my "blinders on" to some of this stuff before. I am not one (or wasn't one) for hospitals, so I pretty much avoided them at all cost. I didn't want to look at sick kids because my kids were healthy and it made me sad....Now it is although it is all I see and think about....I can't imagine what that family is going through.....and I don't want to.....Again, there has to be a reason for all of this somewhere...I just hope He shows it to me soon.

Sorry this has gotten so deep. I have had way too much time on my hands...Thanks for checking in, and thanks for your prayers. Please pray for Malaysia's family that they will find comfort during this time.

Maria

I am thankful for the wonderful nurses of 7B. They willingly go through what many of us try to avoid, and make things bearable for those of us going through this nightmare with our children. They are amazing, strong women that I admire and appreciate with all of my heart.

Monday, August 27, 2007

And we are......STILL in the hospital!!! Unfortunately, it looks like we will be here for a while. Eli's blood counts have hit rock bottom and we aren't sure when they will begin to rise again. Today his ANC was a whopping 0...I guess the good thing is that we have nowhere to go but up now, but it is just that we don't know how long it will take. Our Onc right now is Dr. Hudspeth, the new doc from NY, and she said her "rule of thumb" is an ANC of at least 200 and rising.....so we will wait.

The pain has gotten better today, which is a relief. Unfortunately, we also gave him the chemo that we suspect is the problem again today....so we will see a little later in the week if the pain comes back. We think it will. We have started him on another med, Nuerontin, that is supposed to help with this nerve pain, but it takes 7-10 days to become effective. So we will see.

We are in good spirits. Eli has been able to play in the atrium every day and we go outside at least once a day too.

MUSC decided to get rid of the wireless service here, so the new computer we bought for our stays is useless...boy that has made me mad. Something about it "interfering" with aquipment. What I want to know is...is that really true or is it a tale? Kinda like when you are on an airplane..will answering your phone really bring the plane down? If it did would they really let you carry them on the plane in the firstplace? Just a thought as I sit on the computer in the nurses station instead of my brand new lap top in my room......rrrrrr!!!

Thanks for checking in. Thanks for the phone calls...and thanks for the prayers.

Maria

I am thankful that Eli's pain has lessened.......I am SOOOOOO thankful that TODAY was our last treatment in DELAYED INTENSIFICATION and now we will move (hopefully) to some easier chemo and easier days.......

Friday, August 24, 2007

I really meant to go back and write a little bit after posting that poem, but never got around to it...sorry. I guess what I wanted to say is what an amazing soldier Eli has been, and continues to be, through all of this....

Well, we are back in the "big house". great. Eli ran a temp of 100.5 on Wednesday night, so in we went. His counts at that time were a whopping 30, and now they are a huge 10. His fever has continued kinda on and off, but never spiking high. The fever could very well just be caused by his low counts, but he is still on IV antibiotics just in case. You have to be really careful when the kids are this far down in counts, any infection can easily lead to sepsis.....which is something we really want to avoid.

The thing that really stinks is Eli seems to be having some pretty serious side effects from the Vincristine chemo that he has been getting. He has been having some pretty severe pain. Most of it seems to be in his groin area.....but I think his legs are hurting him pretty good too. What this chemo sometimes does is effect the nerve endings causing pain. Eli will get his fourth dose in four weeks on Monday, which is alot. We are hoping that after he is finished with this delayed intensification and he is getting it less that it won't be an issue. He is on morphine around the clock now to help lessen the pain, but it is still there. It is so difficult to see your baby hurting. I would have given every thing I had to change places with him.....I really hate this!!!

Again, we are at the mercy of one of those "wonder drugs" of chemo. This stuff really works, so you don't have a choice but to continue giving it to him and hope you can make him comfortable.

I am going to try to fix the computer John and I bought for our hospital trips tonight. For some reason, it won't connect to the wireless at the hospital. I hate not being in touch.....

John and I were planning on going to Hootie tonight...but as Murphy's Law goes around here....here we are....but we are still one step closer to being on a lesser chemo schedule, which is great. ( I am really trying to stay positive here, but as you can tell I am tired and a little bit in the "why me mode)

Thanks for checking in. Please pray that the pain Eli is feeling goes away, or at least lessens.

Maria

I am thankful that Eli has the treatment that he does for this disease and we do have a chance to fight with him....I know this was not possible with leukemia 25 years ago....we are blessed by this.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

THE LITTLEST SOLDIERS BY Cheryl Jagannathan

The medals on our chests
Are broviacs for meds
Helmets won't stay on
Cause no hair is on our heads.

Our weapons of destruction
We take every day
We fight the battle within us
While we struggle on to play.

We fight with honor and courage
No marine could do as well
We are only children
Living in this hell.

So bring on the medals
The purple hearts of wars
The gold cross, the silver star
To place upon our scars.

For we are the children of cancer
No one has fought so hard
But every day we struggle on
Our life is our REWARD!

Monday, August 20, 2007

Today's counts:

Hemoglobin 7.9 (Normal 11.0-15.0) We got a unit of blood....
Platelets 6 (Normal 140-440) SO LOW!!! We got platelets.....
ANC 30 (Normal 2000-6600+) We won't be leaving the house any time soon....

It was a long day at clinic today, but pretty uneventful. We got there a little after 8am and left around 4:30. The blood takes 3 hours to administer, and we had to wait an hour after Eli got his PEG shots in his legs in case of reaction. The really great thing is....we only have one more week on Delayed Intensification, then we move on the Long Term Maintenance!!!! (Because his counts are so very low, there will probably be a couple of weeks in between while we wait for his marrow to recover) So things are moving along.

The older boys started school today. Jacob is in the third grade and Sam is in Kindergarten. They were both so cute this morning as I took them to school. I cannot believe they are getting so big....and here I am wishing away Eli's time, just wanting to get to the end of treatment. I really need to stop doing that. Before I know it he will be in Kindergarten himself, done with treatment, and I will wonder where did the time go??????

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for no fevers, and pray that it keeps up. I am thankful for my adorable older boys.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Yesterday's counts were:

ANC 173 (This is actually higher than we thought it would be.)
Hemoglobin 8.2
Platelets 31

Those of you that follow this regularly are saying, but they don't go to clinic until Monday....well, we went yesterday because the place where they did the biopsy on his arm was looking REALLY red. They decided a major factor was that the stitches needed to come out (the derm. said they would "dissolve", but they were so big I was skeptical.) But after seeing how far his counts had dropped (and they are still dropping), the doc decided to give him and IV antibiotic there in the clinic and also send us home with a prescription. Then told me if Eli gets ANY fever whatsoever this weekend, we are in "the big house". So prayers for no fever for the next week are greatly appreciated. Monday will also be a long clinic day because Eli will probably need both blood and platelets. It makes things interesting because it is also the first day of school for the boys. As usual, my mom came to the rescue and said she would pick them up for me.

So after a long clinic visit, Eli and I came home so I could get dressed and go with John out to eat with my family for my dad's birthday and my parent's anniversary. It was at Fleet Landing restaurant downtown and very fun. Then we came home, again praying for no fever for Eli. And low and behold, Jacob has a fever of 103!!!! So, John packed him up and took him to my parent's house. His fever came down after a while, but John took him to the Dr today anyway. He doesn't have strep...it is probably viral. He was still running a fever today. I hope it goes away by tomorrow or he may miss the first day of school!! It was impossible for me to sleep....that was the first time one of my boy's has gotten sick and I wasn't there for them. I know what we are doing is right, but boy is it tough. I feel as though I am having to choose between who to take care of, and I hate that. It just isn't fair.

Well, that's all I have for now. Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful that Eli is still feeling well. I am thankful that we didn't have to be admitted yesterday. Prayers that Jacob is feeling better and fever free tomorrow.

Monday, August 13, 2007



Pictures during and after steroids.....wow....can you tell the difference?!?



Eli's Team Team in Training Page website is.......




Please go and give lots and lots of money!!!!! I just put it together, so as I have more time I will try to "fancy it up" a bit. As I said before, many of you will also get letters from me. I have had about 10 people so far interested in walking....it should be lots of fun!!! Let me know if you want to walk it too..


Todays counts:


ANC 250 (Normal 2000-6000+)

Hemoglobin 9.9 (Normal 11.0-15.0)

Platelets 130 (Normal 140-440)


So our counts have gone WAY down and will continue to. We will probably be homebound now until delayed intensification is over....but then we get to go to Long Term Maint!!!!! The thing I am most bummed about is the platelet counts. When this number plummets I get very nervous about head injuries. With three boys I get lots of bumps and bruises, and without platelets those things become a real problem.


Our clinic visit today was a bit of a nightmare. Eli again couldn't eat or drink due to having an LP (Lumbar Puncture) and they had some confusion with the chemo, then the anestesiologist. So we didn't get started until close to 1pm. We were there at 8am and hungry and thirsty when we walked in the door, so you can imagine how we were at 1!!! I have to say, though, that I am always in awe of how well Eli handles all of this. He really didn't fuss, just played and watched TV. I think I was fussier than he was!!LOL


John is taking this week off, so he took Sam and Jacob with him and they did some fun stuff. I think they are planning to go to the beach tomorrow. I am glad as this will give the boys a last good week before school starts.
Jacob's eighth birthday was on Saturday. I never thought I would be old enough to have an eight year old son.....wow. We went to the Battery Soccer game for a party and he had lots of fun. Little bittersweet for me because Eli was home with a babysitter and it was the first time that our entire family wasn't together for an event like this. I get so mad when I see other kids and I know that he should be able to be having all of that fun, too. I know it will come soon enough, and luckily he doesn't realize what he is missing, but it is still frustrating for me, the mom.
Eli quote of the week: When we were in the hospital, Eli and I were walking the halls because the playroom had closed. I was walking with his IV pole. (Which had a short line) Eli turns around to me and says "Quit following me! You're making me nervous!"....I thought I was going to die laughing. One of the nurses heard him and told me that I really needed to write it down, so here it is.....Hope it made ya'll smile as well.


Thanks for the prayers and for checking in.


Maria


I am sooooo thankful that I have such wonderful and giving friends.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Monday's labs were:

Hemoglobin 11.8 (Normal 11.0-15.0)
Platelets 392 (Normal 140-440)
ANC 1136 (Normal 2000-6000+) BUT we needed 750 to get started YEA!!!!

So we were admitted!!! It took quite a while in the clinic before we got a room (we got upstairs around 4:00 or so, we got there at 8:00) Eli really handled not eating or drinking before his LP well. I think we got the procedure around 11am, so it wasn't as bad as it has been before.

We got some of our favorite nurses in the hospital, Adrianne and Sarah. It came to me that this is our last planned visit to the hospital for chemo. WOW. Although it doesn't always seem like it, I guess we are moving forward with this. All of the rest of chemo will be at home, every day. Eli has to get his ARA-C shots this week and next, and there seems to be a shortage of pediatric home health nurses, so we are having to go to the clinic for a shot every day....that is yucky, especially since it is so unbearably hot (120 heat index). But it is quick visit, in and out, so not so bad.

We got to meet the new oncologist from John's Hopkins, Dr. Hudspeth. I really like her. Eli's little rash that he has had on his arm seemed to get worse Monday and Tuesday, and she went ahead and asked dermotology to do a biopsy. The derm doc didn't seem to really want to do it, but she pushed. And I am with her. I would much rather do it now while his counts are up and rule out any fungus or bacterial problem than wait and NOT be able to do it later because he has no immune protection. I think it may just be a drug reaction to an antibiotic that was given to him. It seems better today, so that is good.

On a different note, I have decided to walk the Myrtle Beach half marathon in February to raise money for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. I am recruiting anyone that wants to walk with me and help me raise funds. The marathon is on Feb 16, and I think the entrance fee is $60. I will post the web site for giving as soon as I get it, and you may also get a letter from me. I have already had about 9 or so people say they would like to walk it. I am hoping to do this on a yearly basis. It has been weighing so heavily on my heart lately the number of children that are being diagnosed with these horrible cancers, and also how many children are dying from it. I know we have gone a long way in the past 20 years or so, but what many people (me included 8 months ago) is how long we have to go.

I met another young man that has been diagnosed with ALL. His name is Justin and he is 9 yrs old. He is currently at MUSC. His grandmother is one of my grandmother's caregivers at Bishop Gadsden. Please pray for this young man and his family.

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful that we got to start the last phase of Delayed Intensification on Monday and we are one step closer to Long Term Maintenance. I am thankful that Eli is feeling well and is handling the chemo well. I am so thankful for the wonderful nurses on 7B that take such good care of all of our children with cancer.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

And the results are.......ANC 550. And then we came home again. AAARRRRGGGGGG!!!

The really funny thing is that I kept telling John how many people seem to have delays during this phase, but it is still so very frustrating. I just want to get on with it. That coupled with the fact that this is the 3rd time that we have been NPO (NO food or drink past midnight) and that is so frustrating. Eli has handled it like the trooper that he is...Mommy is just out of her mind. HAHA.

Through a church friend I was introduced to the family of Kinsey. She is a 16 month BEAUTIFUL girl just diagnosed with ALL. Please keep her and her family in your prayers as they go through this really difficult time. Her family seems to be doing great, and she has a wonderful mom, but prayers are always appreciated.

We go back to the clinic on Monday for another run. Please pray that we have an ANC of at least 750 and are able to begin the next phase so I don't go crazy.....

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for the great doctors and nurses at the clinic that make us so comfortable and take such good care of us. Eli's nurse, Bobby, is especially such a blessing giving him hugs and kisses whenever we go.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Boy have I been lazy about writing here....sorry. But we have had little change. Eli's counts were up to 350 on Friday. Yesterday we went in to get things started and we were at the big 419. So we wait. They won't do anything until he is at least at 750 ANC. We have another appointment on Thursday and we will see then.

Other than being "homebound", Eli is really doing well. He has lost almost all of his baby hair again leaving him almost totally bald. His mood is good, and his appetite has lessened.

So we will wait.....I will let you know.

Thanks for checking in, and thank you for your prayers.

Maria

I am thankful that Eli is still feeling well. I am thankful for my beautiful family.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

We have hit a delay. Yesterday John took Eli to the clinic to get his new round of treatment and be admitted overnight. Well, they came home after a few hours. ANC was at 230 YUCK!! They even checked it twice to be sure. We thought there would be no problem since he was at 1300 a week ago, but from what the doctors say the steroids really cause the counts to go on a roller coaster. So we will wait. I will take Eli tomorrow just to get blood work. They have rescheduled his treatment and LP for Monday, so we will see where we go from there.

Eli has really been in the best mood the past couple of days. His appetite is still really strong, but that is really fine with me since he probably won't want to eat at all once he starts the new stuff.

Our friends. the Valdez family, moved to Atlanta yesterday. We are really going to miss them. Alan is a great friend to Sam and Jake, and Abrielle has been Eli's buddy the past few months. Cher has also been a wonderful friend and support to me these past few months....but I know they will love it in Atlanta and in thier new farm house!!!

Thanks to everyone that gave blood on Monday. I think they got the goal....if you missed Monday, please take the time to give blood. It is so important to these little guys.

I'll let everyone know how Friday's labs go. Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful for Eli's wonderful mood lateley. I am thankful for my friends and family.

Friday, July 20, 2007


This is Eli (or "chubb" as I like to call him) on day 18 of steroids. He is eating chips, which he has eaten 2 big bags of in a week. We finally ended the steroids on Wednesday morning, but he is still eating lots. He is really bloated looking and, truthfully, really sick looking to me. I know this is one of many side effects of the meds, but it is so hard to see my little guy looking so sad.
Last night Eli ran a fever of 99.5 or so and seemed to be breathing as though he were very uncomfortable. So we called, and John took him to the ER at 3am. They took some xrays and it seems that although he is pooping many times each day, he is constipated. So we are giving him a laxative to see if we can make him more comfortable. On a good note, his ANC is up to 1300...so we will definitely be able to begin chemo again on Wednesday.
Jake will finish "Camp Invention" today. He loves to invent things..and they take apart all kinds of appliances to see what is in them and use it for something else. Sam has been in VBS for Holy Cross and enjoyed it. I am so grateful to Kim Emerson and Danielle Theobald for picking/taking my boys this week. I was not comfortable taking Eli into rooms with loads of children. They were certainly a godsend.
I was able to go out with "the girls" for a little while last night. Thanks Robin, Crystal, Kendra, and Jennifer for staying lots longer than I am sure you planned on so I could talk about "normal" kid stuff for a while. It was just what the doctor ordered!!
Thanks for checking in...have a good weekend.
Maria
I am thankful that Eli is not sick. I am thankful that we are done with steroids and half way done with DI. I am soooo thankful that we have such wonderful and supportive friends.
Please pray for the family of Harrison, who lost his battle on Monday to leukemia. May God give them strength in this time of grief.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Todays counts:

ANC 400 (normal 2000-6600+)
Platelets 220 (normal 140-400)
Hemoglobin 12.0 (normal 11.0-15.0)

We went to clinic today because Eli's left toe is looking really angry again. We just can't get over this ingrown toe nail!! Hopefully once we are in maint. we can get it fixed, but for now we just take more antibiotics. He is also experiencing some pretty bad diaper rash, which is never fun. I am doing everything the wound care nurse in the hospital recommended, so hopefully it will get better soon. I went ahead and had them draw the blood so we don't have to go back until next Wednesday. He is supposed to be admitted that day for some Cytoxin...hopefully the counts will be back up to 750 so we can get going.

Eli has gone from eating chicken to eating "ravioli". Actually it is cheese tortolini...I am cooking it constantly. He is wanting chips in the middle of the night...much easier than cooking chicken. His sleeping isn't very good...at least we only have 2 more days of these terrible steroids..

Jacob had an amazing time at camp...I knew he would. He said he didn't miss up at all, which I am betting is probably right. He can't wait to go back next year. This week he is at camp invention and Sam is at the Holy Cross VBS. They both seem to enjoy it. Trying to keep them busy this summer has been tough. I can't believe summer will be over soon. Part of me feels guilty that I have "wished away" this summer because of Eli. I just want it to be over so we can get to maint. and maybe some normalcy. I know I said at the beginning of all of this that it is truly a marathon....but living it is so different from simply saying the words. I wake up and think....boy we have been doing this for almost 8 months...but I have almost 3 yrs to go....WOW. But we WILL get there and we WILL beat this thing. I do believe that.

Hope you have a good week.

Maria

I am thankful that Eli will finish his steroids this week. I am thankful that we haven't had any really terrible side effects from this round of chemo. I am thankful for my wonderful family that gives me joy every day.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Blood Drive in Honor of Eli Crowley
Christ Episcopal Church, Mt. Pleasant
Monday July 23,2007
1PM-6PM

Please come out and give blood!! Eli has received numerous platelets as well as red blood and will still need more, as do many other children fighting this horrible disease!!!

If you would like to schedule an appointment, please call Ann Furmanchek at 881-5787.
Today's counts:

ANC 610 (Normal 2000-6600+)
Hemoglobin 12.0 (Normal 11.0-15.0)
Platelets 216 (Normal 140-440)

Our good counts ride is over. With a count of 610 we will not be going out very much this week. The really scary thing is that we don't know if they are still going down or not. But anyway you put it, Eli is very open to infection right now. I am really glad that we got out so much the past week. It will make the staying in much easier to handle.

He is also a bit of a monster. John and I were both up at 2:30am this morning making him chicken. I know this sounds rediculous and seems as though we are giving in to him....but he screamed for at least a half hour wanting only chicken. I spoke to the doc today and he basically said to try to appease him the next week...the steroids will make him very miserable. I guess this is what it feels like to live with Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde. One second he is snuggling with me on the couch, the next he is calling me stupid. (yes, my two year old child called me stupid...and he knew exactly what he was doing.) He isn't smiling very much, and just seems mad all the time.

Taking Jacob to camp was much more difficult than I expected. He had no problems....I just hope he does well. In the back of my mind I am so sure he will, but I still worry. We will pick him up on Saturday and hear all about the great week he had.

I will try to update again this week. Hope the week goes well for you.

Livestrong,

Maria

Please pray for the family of Charlie, a little boy who lost his fight this week. May God comfort them as they go through this most difficult time.

I am thankful that Eli's chemo went well today and that he did not need blood or platelets. I am thankful there is such an amazing place as St. Christopher camp for my children to learn about community and God.