Have you ever felt like you have been walking in this tunnel for a long time and slowly you begin to see light, then more light, then so on? Well, that is kinda what I feel like right now. I don't think I realized that I was depressed, but I was. I don't know if it is just how good things are going with Eli, getting involved in church again, or everything put together, but I really am feeling "lighter" every day. I know that doesn't mean we are not going to have our bad days or weeks, but I rejoice in what today is giving me!!

A very wise and wonderful woman from church said her sister described it like this: " you see a storm cloud in the horizon and you always know it is there, but it isn't right over your head and there is really no reason to worry or obsess over it being there....it isn't going anywhere and there really isn't anything you can do about it but live your life!!

OK...I have been wanting to share this with you and I had to look back at all of my old posts to be sure I hadn't already. This is a song that someone from church sent to me back in January of 2007 when we were in the thick of things. It has become an amazing song for me...so I wanted to share it. I think it applies to many of us in many circumstances of our lives....

Praise You In This Storm lyrics
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth


If you ever get the chance to hear it, listen. The band is amazing.

We go to the clinic tomorrow for chemo and begin our steroid pulse...yea!!

Thanks for checking in.

Maria

I am thankful that I seem to be coming out of the tunnel.